Not Just Your Garden Variety Worm

And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption…


Oh Father!

I miss deep garden fellowship.

I can’t wait to see you

face to face.

Perfect fellowship.

Perfect unity.

Perfect righteousness.

I hunger and thirst…

to be good…

to be righteous.

I just want to be good!

I always have

had that deep desire

(from the moment that infant sinner

was drowned in the depths of the baptismal font)

to be good.

But I know I’m not.

Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

I hear my own thoughts.

I know my own heart.

I live them!

I experience them

in all their wretched depravity.

O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?

I’m wicked, wicked Lord!

Desperately wicked.

Oh!  What a wretch I am!

Oh!  What a worm am I!

But I am a worm and not a man, scorned by everyone, despised by the people.

Blind, legless, deaf, slimy.

Crawling through dust.

Breathing in choking dust.

Saturated in dark, DARK! filthy…dirt.

Earthly, worldly, dirty.

Digging muddy tunnels

in the dark.

Leaving muddy trails in the tunnels as I crawl…squirm.

Vain meaningless tunnels.

Meandering, wandering tunnels.

Underground tunnels.

(Can there be above ground tunnels?)


We are subjected to aimlessness, futility, darkness.

So like a worm

am I.

Do not be afraid, you worm Jacob, little Israel, do not fear, for I myself will help you,” declares the LORD, your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.

I am so thankful

for Jesus

and my new heart!

My NEW heart!

Faith frees from futility!

Faith frees form meaninglessness!

Faith frees from vanity!

Faith frees from aimlessness!

Faith frees from darkness!

Faith frees from wickedness!

Faith makes one good!

Faith!  Precious Faith!

Most precious Faith!

I love you, Lord!

For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

You are my Light.

You are my Life.

You are my righteousness.

You are my redemption.

No longer a worm am I!

He made my feet like the feet of a deer
and set me secure on the heights.

Jesus, I confess, I am a sinner, a worm.  You are not only my righteousness and sanctification and redemption…but you are my only source of  great wisdom.  Save me from darkness.

In Jesus’ name, Amen





About lifevine

Hi! My name is Amy. I am a former atheist and, for a season, practiced witchcraft. God drew me out of darkness 17 years ago and gave me the spiritual gifts of knowing and faith. He gives me daily encouragement and affirmation and I hope to share Him with you. If you have not yet met the one true God, His name is Jesus Christ, and may I be the first to introduce you to Him? He is the Restorative Savior God promised Adam and Eve 6,000 years ago (Genesis 3:15) after they had sinned in the garden, bringing separation from God because of disobedience. It is rightly reported that a little over 2,000 years ago in Bethlehem He was born of a virgin, lived a blameless perfect life in and around Jerusalem, died on a cross on Golgotha for the world's sin, and 3 days later rose again. YES! ROSE AGAIN! AMAZING! Please get baptized in His name, and walk in an eternal restored fellowship with Christ. You can get to know Him by reading, marking, and inwardly digesting His Word.... His Holy Bible.
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