I love when my husband takes the spiritual leadership role in our family. It just feels so right in my heart. He is doing it more and more and it is a thrilling transformation, albeit slowly. Coming out of darkness, we were so screwed up in leadership roles. Our marriage was more of a competition than a union.
My husband did give me food for thought this morning. A mutual acquaintance of ours just lost his ‘life partner’. This particular acquaintance is steeped in darkness, drugs, pornography, the world. I can vividly remember one day my husband and I out on a walk and this person revved by in his big pickup maniacally screaming out his window, “See you in hell!”
As all of these memories swirled in our head and we pondered the fate of him and his life partner, my husband said something more profound than I think either of us recognized. He said, “It seems like some people think Satan is a better protector than God.”
I pondered that all morning and then this verse came to mind that I had read yesterday, “It pleased the Lord to bruise him.” Isaiah 53:10. I remember thinking how cruel that sounded, that God would be “pleased” to crucify Jesus, until I stopped to think about why, and then the high priests prophetic words rang in my brain, “You do not realize that it is better for you that one man die for the people than that the whole nation perish.” John 11:50
In context, God
sometimes makes sense.
As Martin Luther put it, “Faith takes Christ captive in his word when he is angriest, and makes out of his cruel words a comforting inversion.”
Jesus, you died for me and rose again. I trust you, no matter what. My earthly Father got angry and cruel and it didn’t make sense, but I never stopped loving him. I pray that God grants me the faith to do the same thing when it appears as if my Heavenly Father is angry and cruel. By faith do not let me let up on trust in God’s grace, knowing that in His perfection, Abba Father knows best. In Jesus’ name, Amen.