Well, here I sit.
Troubled, frustrated, confused, perplexed, depressed, questioning, sad, concerned, downcast, and a plethora of other emotions and feelings. I’m a bundle of humanity this morning.
What to do? What to do?
Paul, an apostle of Jesus, had similar conflict: “In every way we’re troubled, but we aren’t crushed by our troubles. We’re frustrated, but we don’t give up. We’re persecuted, but we’re not abandoned. We’re captured, but we’re not killed. We always carry around the death of Jesus in our bodies so that the life of Jesus is also shown in our bodies. While we are alive, we are constantly handed over to death for Jesus’ sake so that the life of Jesus is also shown in our mortal nature. Death is at work in us, but life is at work in you. The following is written, “I believed; therefore, I spoke.” We have that same spirit of faith. We also believe; therefore, we also speak. We know that the one who brought the Lord Jesus back to life will also bring us back to life through Jesus. He will present us to God together with you. All this is for your sake so that, as God’s kindness overflows in the lives of many people, it will produce even more thanksgiving to the glory of God. That is why we are not discouraged. Though outwardly we are wearing out, inwardly we are renewed day by day. Our suffering is light and temporary and is producing for us an eternal glory that is greater than anything we can imagine. We don’t look for things that can be seen but for things that can’t be seen. Things that can be seen are only temporary. But things that can’t be seen last forever.
If there is one thing I’ve learned over the last dozen or so years of following Jesus, it is an understanding of why He said to offer up a “sacrifice” of praise. It is not an easy thing to do in a kingdom ruled by the prince of darkness. This world, the enemy, and my flesh does not want to praise God, especially when I feel like I do today. But, only through His power at work in me, and by His grace poured out on me do I do just that!
That’s what to do. That’s what to do.