I wake up every morning longing to be an encouragement and a witness to others.  This longing has become a part of me.

It wasn’t always that way.

My former self was what you would call a people hater.  I felt justified in hating people, children especially.  Oh I hated kids!   I hated being around them, I hated their meanness and their selfishness (rolls her eyes at her own selfishness) I was a hater.

Looking back on it I can see it as sin a protective device.  I was, and still am, very sensitive to people’s emotions and feelings towards me and others.  I can usually read people really well; sometimes TOO well.  I’ve come to realize that that is part of the spiritual gifts of knowing and compassion.  God develops sensitivity in these gift areas because he calls those so gifted to live a life of prayer, and to live the life of a prayer warrior it is necessary to be sensitive to what is going on with other people.

I think I’ve already started to make my point for me…only Jesus and his work on the cross can make a hater become a lover.  Don’t get me wrong,  I still experience those feelings of hate…that’s part of that “old outer man.”  But now I recognize it, confess it, and as the Holy Spirit draws me to repentance and the emptying of me of me, He fills me with His love and compassion for others.

Some days I actually stand back in uncomfortable shock and just watch Him cry out through me for  others.  Honestly, if it were me, I wouldn’t do it.  I am would be a hater.  It has to be Christ living in me.

Oh, and did I mention that God took that hate for children and turned it 180 degrees around?  One of my favorite vocations was working in a Christian preschool and witnessing to those precious little souls about the astounding love of an amazing God who would send HIS only Son to die for us!  Now I die to self to bless (instead of hate) every ‘little child’ He puts in my path.

Oh, and just a reminder…a lot of Christians are wrongly accused of being haters by gays and abortion rights activists.  Just remember Jesus was accused of being a hater by ignorant unbelievers, too.

Father God…I am so glad that the Rock is breaking me.  May your word dwell richly in me so that I may continue to grow in love towards others.  Make me a lover not a hater.  In Jesus name, Amen


About lifevine

Hi! My name is Amy. I am a former atheist and, for a season, practiced witchcraft. God drew me out of darkness 17 years ago and gave me the spiritual gifts of knowing and faith. He gives me daily encouragement and affirmation and I hope to share Him with you. If you have not yet met the one true God, His name is Jesus Christ, and may I be the first to introduce you to Him? He is the Restorative Savior God promised Adam and Eve 6,000 years ago (Genesis 3:15) after they had sinned in the garden, bringing separation from God because of disobedience. It is rightly reported that a little over 2,000 years ago in Bethlehem He was born of a virgin, lived a blameless perfect life in and around Jerusalem, died on a cross on Golgotha for the world's sin, and 3 days later rose again. YES! ROSE AGAIN! AMAZING! Please get baptized in His name, and walk in an eternal restored fellowship with Christ. You can get to know Him by reading, marking, and inwardly digesting His Word.... His Holy Bible.
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